I feel like my life is continually spiraling out of control. It's almost as if no matter what I do, no matter how I go about things and no matter what it is I say nothing happens the way I want it. I'm fed up with the fact that my life and my family are not nearly as important as others. Its sad that this is supposed to be family, maybe not my family but still family all the same. I hate that when I stood up for something and decided it had to be the time that I was called names and told how someone else helped much more than I did, when as a matter of fact I am the reason things are the way the are, I am the reason this family is still together and this family still has everything it needs. I'm the reason that other's are still doing good in their life, and yet I'm the bad person?
Yet what hurts the worst is that the one person that I expected to be there for me, that I expected to stand up for me sat there and didn't care about what was said about me, sat there and acted like it wasn't wrong of the other person. Slowly and surely I'm gaining my strength, and it will be here in due time. I hope that when it finally does that people are ready for the big changes. I don't see any of this being fair, and if someone else continues to see it as OK then I guess they are in for a rude awakening in the end being gone and out of sight. I hope then they sit back and think "was it really worth it?" because I am the only one that stood by their side and took what they gave, no matter how big it was or how bad it hurt. I'm the only one that stuck by them and they are disappointing me the most. :(
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